30+

Is this blog public? I don't even remember creating it. Well if you've read it let me know. Amazing that I wrote it before I was even 30 and now I'm 34. Let me just get to the point. I love getting older because with more years comes more wisdom, more memory loss, more blank stares, more love, more joy, and possibly more sorrow. So bring it on! I'm ready. (I hope)

Chronic Pain

I am so sick of all the women in this world that can't stick it out and stop complaining.  I'm always so tired.  I have post-p depression.  I can't get rid of this headache.  I can't do this with all this pain.  I feel so stressed all the time.  My neck hurts.  My back hurts.  I need a coke.

Confession!

I am one of these women.  There was a time in my life when I said, "I will never be like my mother-in-law who can't even get herself out of bed to answer her door when we her children are knocking!"  I had a dear friend say, be careful what you say.  You never know what life has in store for you."  She was much more mature in years than me and I should have knocked on wood.

Yes I do struggle from Chronic Pain and and at one point I remember feeling very helpless, lonely, lost, and trapped in a body that wasn't working for me.  This lasted for years.  Life wasn't the perfect fairly tale I had pictured.  And don't forget I'm only in my 20's.  Boo HOO!  No one want to learn this truth until they're at least 50.  Right?

So you have TMJ?

If I get asked this anymore times I'm going to scream.  No I don't have TMJ.  My friekin' jawbone is gone and it sucks.  So 2 years ago I had a Dr.  tell me my jaw is like a 90 year old ladies and that if I don't take care of it I'll end up an invalid at age 50.  As a young immature mother with high hopes of living my dream of singing till the day I die.  This didn't go over to well.  Can you tell I needed a little empowerment here.  Well don't worry the story doesn't end here.  

I'm a stay at home Mom

What does that  mean n-e-ways.  Do we really stay a home? or do we run kids to Dr. appointments, to school, to practices,  shop at various grocery stores trying to get by with the outrageous  grocery  and gas prices.  I spend to much time trying to save a buck.  I don't think I could be considered a stay at home Mom.  My sweet 84 year old neighbor LouDean seems to think the same.  "You young moms are always going from here to there.  You're never home."  Is she annoyed or impressed.  Well I'm annoyed.  I decided to sell our 2nd car thought it would help SIMPLIFY?  Did it? Well riding bikes to the grocery store with 3 kids doesn't seem so SIMPLE. First we spend 2 hours getting everyone out the door.   We go to hook up the trailer to the bike to get ready to go.  The trailer is broken and the bike tire is flat.  Do any of you have anger issues. I don't think anger is so SIMPLE. Breath...  I have anger issues.  So I breathe.  Does this help? What helps? Any tips?